In this dream, I was an astronaut on a space walk (really!!). I saw myself outside of the space capsule, wearing a bulky space suit, connected to the capsule by a long tether. As I looked down at myself in the space suit, I realized that there was a light shining on me. In the dream, I said “What is this light?Without any source of light in space, everything should be totally black”. And I heard, “The closest word you have to describe it is love.”
In my first blog post, I describe my encounter with Jesus, and how I was instantly flooded with an earth-shattering experience of His love. For many of my years with the Lord, I have felt the tangible presence of His love. But in this latest dark and dry season, all too often I don’t feel any connection at all. My faith and belief haven’t gone away, but this absence has a left a void that I can’t fill by my own efforts.
Now I’m returning to my journals and the memories of my early years with Jesus to help rekindle that first love. I was drawn to post about this dream, but wasn’t really sure why. Only now, as I write this, am I seeing that this dream totally captures where I ‘m often struggling in my current faith (space?) walk – feeling totally isolated and alone, surrounded by darkness, with only a thin tether connecting me to Him.
So God left this dream as provision for me to come across many years later when He knew I would need it the most. It’s a vivid reminder that no matter how dark it seems around us, no matter how remote we feel from God, we are never out of range of God’s love.
Psalm 139: “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?” If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.